From Victim to Success

By Deb Ling

I am an ex-abuse victim that grew to hate myself. I had migraines for 21 years. I only had a few friends because I was a tough person to be
 around. Very few people could handle my constant attitude.

Surviving Abuse

 

I became a 
bartender, and even though I was only 5'1" and 100 pounds, no one 
messed with me. I carried a cue stick that broke down into half its 
size and it had a lead ball end in it. I was willing to use it if I 
needed to protect myself in the bar. But how I spoke (unrepeatable) kept the drunks in line. I was one tough cookie that could even talk 
down an Army Sergeant.

No, I did not appreciate myself. 
Then circumstances moved me across country and I hooked up with some Christians. I had been saved when I was younger, but backslid. So now,
 I hooked up with them, and needless to say I was rough around the 
edges.

By this time I was a single mom with a teenage son. He and
 I were close, and it was raising him that kept me from going over the 
edge. He kept me from doing stupid things. I would always remind 
myself that I had to take care of him. If there was no other reason on 
earth for me to be here, it was to raise him.

He is now a great dad with two children of his own. 
Starting to walk with Christians and getting my act together as a Christian did not exactly help me appreciate myself. It actually pointed out how far off the mark I was. Ouch!

For a couple of years, I just plodded along doing the things that Christians do. I was very 
active in my church. I was a greeter, a substitute teacher in the 
school we had, secretary to the pastor, always getting a part in the 
plays we produced, etc., but I still had issues.

Finally, I got really sick of myself and cried out to the Lord. He took 
me through three months of intensive teaching. Dealing with my past, I learned to forgive others, as well as myself, and my mom who had not kept me safe.

I learned to like myself for who I had become and leaving
 behind all the pain. I was being able to talk about it with insight instead 
of it being like a movie I had seen. Today I like and appreciate myself.

I documented all the Lord taught me and put it together in a book. I teach those principals to other women that have been abused.

 

Here is the link to my eBook: http://victimsofabuse.webs.com

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