Oh LIFE, I see you and I accept your daily challenges and speed bumps…
It was 4 weeks after giving birth to my twins that Bells Palsy decided to bust through and give me another challenge.
It was horrible and stripped a layer of confidence for sure. Like, who has the energy to learn to be a Mom, heal from the whole birth experience, and now deal with Bells. NOBODY. I wouldn’t wish it on my enemies, (which I don’ think I have any, but I digress).
I handled it the best I could then and have developed a lifestyle that has kept it managed and I guess dormant.
Today, I had a doctor’s appointment for a surgery I need on the 18th ( all is ok ) and my doctor, who is amazing by way noticed my sexy eye twitch on the right side of my face. 😉
She said, “Susan, are you okay?” I said, “yea, why?”, “Your eye is twitching and contracting”, she mentions.
“Oh, yea, meet my bells palsy”, I say with a chuckle.
She then mentions to me that’s what she thought and she’s extra sensitive to Bells Palsy because she had it and with all the twitching discovered she had a mass behind her ear.
EYES WIDEN and I say, WHATTTT…
She didn’t want to scare me, but she asked if I had ever had a brain scan and that I should have had one when I got Bells Palsy. I didn’t. I just got the steroid and then I have been managing it with nutrition, sleep, and exercise now for almost 6 years.
Multiple times a year my eye struggles with twitching, contracting, pain, loud noises hurt it and sometimes I feel like I got punched on that side of the face. I just assume I may have had too much coffee, wine, or not enough sleep.
I’m SURE ALL IS FINE, but can you imagine if I do have a mass, like WTF. LOL.
Here’s why I’m sharing…
I could throw myself into a spiral of thoughts and frustration, but that doesn’t serve me. If I create the thought drama it will only make things worse. I’ll get moody, build anxiety, lose focus on my work, get short with my family and that’s no fun when I literally can’t do anything or know anything until after the MRI.
My brain will get to be scanned and I will have answers either way. Good or next step answers, right? Maybe this is the doctor that went out of her way to makes sure I take that extra step to ensure my brain is all good. ( if she only really knew me, LOL)
Because what if she didn’t and I went another few years and what IF I do have a mass.
Who knows. But I’m grateful for her.
I choose to listen, follow her instructions and pray for the best.
It’s this kind of internal dialogue with myself that keeps me winning and feeling optimistic, and taking on life as this game— I call it the “Get All A’s in the Game of Life”
• Accept what IS at this moment. I’m embracing this as an opportunity to have a thorough brain check.
• Appreciate the moment— I appreciate her for going out of her way.
• Achieve. I’m achieving with calmness, focus, and faith. All will be okay and
- I choose to keep winning my days and take on the daily challenges as they come.
- I choose to OWN my mind and thought
- I choose to OWN my reactions
- I choose to OWN my next forward actions
Every moment we have choices.
What choices are you making that support you for the better? What choices are you making to create movement and momentum? What choices are you making that will create a better version of yourself and your life?
Choices, choices and they’re all your choices. 😉
I’d love to hear any of your winning choices below!
