Guilt hit me Friday night when Rob and I got home from the hospital. Yes, Sue, I went back to the ER this past Wednesday due to complications after my surgery.
As I slowly walked up to our front porch and entered our home, I felt the peace and quiet. No ER nurses outside the hallway, no beeping blood pressure machines, no screaming from patients in pain, including myself, and no kids. That’s when the guilt sunk.
I felt guilty because I felt relieved that the twins weren’t home and I could just go right into bed to sleep and rest.
“This is normal and It’s okay,” I tell myself.
Today, the twins ran into the house from spending the last few days with my sister and they were so happy as they sprinted upstairs to share all that they did. My heart instantly melted because I not only did I miss them, I realized they just had their very own mini-vacation.
So yea, I have guilt because of the story I created.
The same internal story and dialogue so many of you have as well, right? But my kids didn’t care one bit. They had a blast and that makes me super happy and the guilt released almost instantly.
We played a board game in my bed as they shared more stories from their weekend getaway.
I felt the guilt
Expressed the guilt
Embraced the guilt
Released the guilt
That’s the journey of life and emotions. You don’t ignore them, you ride them through.
As for me, I needed that rest and I feel a thousand times better than from this past week with the 4 nights I spent between 2 ER trips and 2 nights at the hospital.
I’ve accepted that I need to rest and ignore the house chores, monitor my urine, wear uncomfortable, oversized pads, sleep on a bed pad, and take my meds. HA! #sexy
At this moment, I don’t have an appreciation for what I just experienced, but I do have all the appreciation for all the nurses, doctors, friends, and family—all of you! I felt so connected with so many of you and felt so loved and supported. THANK YOU.
It’s been a crazy 2020, but you all just gave me that extra push over the hump to continue finishing my year strong and achieve—(life and business).
With my A-Game, Acceptance and found Appreciation, I’m going to Achieve like the Momboss + Wifeboss that I am 😉
I invite you to keep connecting, keep sending prayers where and when you can, and always accept and appreciate the support so that you can continue to achieve on your journey.
xoxo, Sue
PS. This internal work, internal dialogue, and lifestyle practices is part of what I teach within my 90-day Mindset & Achieve program. You should join us and discover your power to create the life you love.
